The Spirit of the human soul does not exist in the future. When I place myself into a future scenario of where shall I live or what shall I eat when I retire, it creates anxiety within myself, and I lose the guidance of my soul. My whole being can only exist in the present as mind, body, and soul. 

It seems to me that the spirit and God commune only in the present moment, whether or not our mind is present or not. For example, last week, I experienced a phenomenon I hadn’t experienced in a long time. It was anxiety. It felt like a void within my being, the feeling of nothingness and nonexistence.

My intellectual mind traveled to a future where my body and soul did not exist yet. I placed myself into a mental reality where my body and soul could not physically catch up. The mental part of myself felt the anxiety and panicked. I reached for the comfort of my heart and soul. The internal sacred space that I talked about in a post is called “Hedging,” and it wasn’t there. It’s like grasping for something solid and only grab hold of air. 

My mind time traveled, and my body and soul stayed put. I experienced a momentary disconnect from myself, and I no longer felt whole. The love and comfort which I have physically share and soulfully enjoyed vanished. The feeling was exceedingly unpleasant. I was no longer whole, and I was unable to connect to God. He only is the Alpha and the Omega. I am the present. Until I can exist in the present, I can not see God who reveals Himself to me in the present. God knows what I will need.

“For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things.

But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.

Sell that ye have, and give alms; provide yourselves bags which wax not old, a treasure in the heavens that faileth not, where no thief approacheth, neither moth corrupteth.” -Luke 12:30-33

Therefore I must live in the present. Relinquish the desire to control the future, which causes anxiety. Instead, take each new moment as a surprise and experience excitement as I live out my life.

Image: Paul Gaugin, The Yellow Christ, 1889