It’s the evening before Part One of my CPA exam, and my spirit is revolting. My insides rebelled against the study process for the last two weeks. As the days creep closer to test day, the more my heels dig in. The conflicts and struggles are abundant. The desire for success and fear push it away. The desire to stay domesticated and the need to go out to hunt. The condemnation of counting money and the desire for wealth to flow generously.

I’m exhausted by the push and pull of conflicts between feminine and masculine and emotion and apathy. I want to live a feminine and delicate life yet walk into a workforce of masculinity and aggression. To play the role of protector and provider when all my being knows herself as lover and giver. It’s the fight between the spiritual and the physical when I desire them to dance gracefully and harmoniously.

To put on the mindset of a quarterback and radiate the energy of a cheerleader. Feeling this conflict validates the disconnect of the human's incompleteness as one. “And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness:” (Genesis 1:26, KJV). God exists as a multiple unit of one. 

How can I experience harmony as a single unit trying to live with multiple roles? Taking a moment to pause and look at the scene while accepting the fullness of the experience allows for the realness of life to be displayed. I open my spirit to the fullness of my existence and extend my spiritual hand to the Spirit of God into a dance of Divine union. We live within the truth of our Being as a single unit of Spirits.

Image: Claudel, Camille. La Valse (The Waltzers), 1889-1905, Bronze.